The Self as a Fractal

While mathematics and especially theoretical mathematics are not my strong suit, I have always had a fascination with the ways in which chaos theory and fractal math apply to socio-cultural and social-emotional situations. I have no idea what spurred the following poorly-expressed theory, but after a week of intense conflict with my Self, it came out in this form and fashion. A succinct way of distilling down all that I've been agonizing over, to be sure.

I have battled hard against anxiety and depression since I was a teen, and PTSD or CPTSD since my mid-20s (following a series of what is most easily described as Highly Unfortunate Events). Perhaps the below theorizing is the result of, a few days ago, finally having felt that I had battled my own demons and won...

"Humans in general are alternately the chaotic arms and spirals, and the central, tightly-coiled, absolute value in a fractal. Systemically, if applied to the individual psyche and psychology, we can posit that:

a. where a conflict between the Self and CPTSD, anxiety, depression, etc. exists, the central, Mandelbrot-based "c" value (the relationship between the Real and the Imaginary parts of an equation) are reflected by the current mental-emotional stressors; thus the Self becomes the derivative sequences (arms, spirals, infinite iterations); the central absolute can be considered both the cause and the solution to such chaotic, harmful Self-conflict: filial-tribal networks, community, learned healthy coping, resilience; AND:

b. the inverse can also be true, wherein the Self becomes the central, absolute value, having the most constant stability, as healthy coping, communities, and resilience are built; we might posit that information can flow both outward and back inward along a Julia set (this being the result of each further derivation from the original). Given this inverse relationship and the theoretical exchange between Chaos (the world around us; personal relationships; existent unhealthy coping) and subsequent Order (we observe; we experience; we are given input; we grow), can we teach ourselves how to become anchors in the eye of, rather than being the, Storm?"

What are our obligations to one another in relation to this ever-inverting and reverting system of emotional intelligence and growth? It would seem clearer progressively that we must encourage and empower one another to be unafraid of the two key and opposing states of Being: one that appears on the surface unmanageable, but is anchored firmly within the Self, and another which is chaotic  to the individual (whose mental-emotional state appears as many derivative arms), but is anchored in multiple ways.

Footnote-I will likely come back and add more to this later...